|
[23 Jan 2005|04:18pm] |
kayleecrayon
new journal...instuctions on page.
love.
|
|
| well... |
[17 Jan 2005|08:58am] |
"God you are one filthy fucking whore. Its a shame that a nice set of tits like those are attached to your STD-filled body. Skanky slut" -anonymous
you know you're really bored when you go onto someone's livejournal and write that. there is no substance, no grammar. God, it's funny what this world is coming to...
yes, but it is true. this world is really stupid and think that you are going to get to somebody by doing stupid shit like that. therefore, i am making a new journal and i will post the new name when i think of one.
thanks a lot, journal. you've helped me through a lot.
<3 kaylee
|
|
| and in the mornin', i'm makin' pancakes! |
[09 Jan 2005|12:21pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cheerful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
dropface: "end to breathe" |
] |
well not really but i AM making them for dinner. tonight i thought i'd stay home with zach and make dinner and everybody chose pancakes. my little sister is selling girl scout cookies so don't front and buy some from her, aiiight?!
in other news--
kirk and lauren are having a baby! yay for kirk and lauren! now john is gonna be a real uncle but we're all gonna be like aunts and uncles. i'm so excited. and then like ican buy the baby clothes and awwwwwwwww. so cuuute! aww, i love kirk, i think he's gonna be a great dad. now i'm gonna go on a happy tangant!!!!!!!!!
|
|
|
[08 Jan 2005|01:14am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 scared |
] |
i am not even gonna try and explain this dream. it was so terrible and felt so real that i don't want to relive it. i woke up panicing and zach tells me to tell him and just about as i'm finished he says "are you almost finished?" and rolls over and goes to sleep. so now i am on the couch pissed off at his house. great! what's the mom gonna think in the am?
|
|
| and the breakdown... |
[06 Jan 2005|06:28am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
relieved |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
Dropface : "Epidemic" |
] |
alright...well after having a sucky day yesterday, i finally talked it out with zach and it's all good now. i was really upset about some stuff and i just couldn't stop thinking about it.
but anyways...
no school today! how exciting is that! two days in a row!! i might go up to middletown today to zach's while he's working and see if i can get to the mall so i can turn in my application. getting ready to move in with him so i'll need a job closer, and better, than rite aid. just in case nobody knows, yeah, i don't know if i got fired or if i quit but i don't work there anymore. but that's cool with me. why? because i am getting my car this weekend and then i can drive up to the mall. oooh! can you imagine?! i get to dress up pretty for work and sell bras and panties and help guys pick out valentine's day gifts! oooh! just as long as no one asks me to try anything on...lol, just kidding nobody would want to see that, lol. but then i'll even get a discount on their overly-priced lingerie considering i only wear their panties and bras. how exciting!
tonight i go to the studio and make sure the boys aren't slacking. but d-face is making quite an awesome new album. how good are these guys?! they just released their "break neck revolution" cd and now their already making a new album, so that's why they aren't playing any shows for awhile; there's no time to practice the old set.
ahhh, anyways. zach and i will be together for a year on the 18th. i can't believe it but we're still babies in relationship time. but we're getting there!
alright i'm going back to sleep. night everyone! drive safe!
|
|
| : / |
[05 Jan 2005|09:47am] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 depressed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
d-face "forever" |
] |
I'm so tired, so confused I drift with no hope, no direction: I'm so frustrated.
Each day seems like I'm farther, farther away...farther away, farther oh we tried to be forever. we tried to be forever.
Torn with the empty dreams that I have. Will I amount to nothing without you??
we tried to be forever, dreams can't last forever.
We tried to be forever, we tried to be forever.
We tried to be forever. Dreams can't last forever...
dropface - "Forever"
copyright: KKL03
I can't shake it off...
(that called for a fix)
|
|
|
[19 Sep 2004|02:16pm] |
okay, yeah.
if anyone knows the page number for "book twelve" of the odyssey, pleassssssssse call me or e-mail me or something.
9162 - fivesinglefinch@yahoo.com
|
|
|
[08 Aug 2004|03:51pm] |
zach, if you see this:
i love you.
and i need you right now.
i'm so lonely.
and blue.
you're all that i need to get me through.
i love you.
|
|
|
[30 Jul 2004|01:32pm] |
-the babe and i-
|
|
|
[20 Jul 2004|11:47pm] |
i'll leave the rest up to you to figure out.
|
|
| good news... |
[20 Jul 2004|01:24pm] |
i do not have spinal meningitis (sp?)
for all of you who do not know what's going on, here it is:
last night i went to the hospital because of astronomical head and neck pain.
had my first blood drawing done.
and had my first catscan.
found out i have a viral infection causing migraines.
yeah, wonderful.
b-e-a-utiful.
|
|
|
[11 Jul 2004|11:49pm] |
brooklynisburnin: you are my...
wantonsonor: sunshine
wantonsonor: my only...
brooklynisburnin: sunshine:-)
wantonsonor: you make me...
brooklynisburnin: happy:-D
wantonsonor: when skies are...
brooklynisburnin: grey...you'll never know...
wantonsonor: dear... how much I love you
wantonsonor: so please dont take...
brooklynisburnin: my sunshine away
how could anyone ever ask for more??
|
|
| this is weird... |
[02 Jul 2004|10:45am] |
when you sit back and think about it...
after the heartbreak,
the drugs,
the family problems,
the lack of friends...
...what's left??
well, let's see...
...a boyfriend.
about two friends [lucie and danielle].
no job.
and a mind full of nostalgia.
why is monroe coming back to me??
|
|
|
[28 May 2004|11:30pm] |
|
|
|
[18 May 2004|12:14am] |
|
HAPPY FOUR MONTHS, ZACH!!!
|
|
| update... |
[17 May 2004|11:57pm] |
well, just to let everyone know, things are all better now. not only did zach, but i also talked to matt and we're all going to try to work harder to get along as a group. so i had sat down with zach and got down to "brass tacks" (lol, it rhymed!!!) and i explained to him that i won't allow that to happen anymore and he agreed with everything i said. then i spoke to matt and he said that he'll try a lot harder to recognize the fact that he's being rude. and then i started to realize that zach is a different person than he was four months ago and matt wasn't ready to accept that. so i think that if we all bend a little and we all put some work in, things will be okay. thank you to everyone who left me messages on what they thought, i appreciate it. and really thank you to matt and zach for being completly understanding. <3
in my world outside of the middletown drama, i talked to kelly tonight and apologized to her that i've been distant lately. i've been feeling really bad about it and i think it was time for me to start accepting that things are going to get a little harder as we get older and that new friends are going to come into our lives as old ones leave for whatever reasons. i hope i explained to her well-enough that i hope i don't lose her as a friend. but to all of the chester people who i'm friends with and actually read this, i'm really sorry and i hope we can make things right again. thanks kelly, you're one in a million. <3
the prom drama is really hitting hard...
1.) i will have the worst day of my period the day of prom (yeah, go figure)
2.) tuesday is not only my hair appointment day for dye but zach and my
anniversary.
3.) wednesday, we sign up for prom tables. i'll be sitting with jamie and her
friend maddy, manda van de bogart and her boyfriend martin, and patty and
her boyfriend justin. also, zach and i are going for haircuts. (yeah yeah
yeah, why aren't we married yet??)
4.) thursday i have a doctors appointment at 2:40 in monroe then straight from
there to band practice with zach.
5.) friday is the big day...at least it excuses me from half a day of school.
6.) saturday zach and i are going to the shore...i've never seen the ocean.
but check out how much i'm paying for prom:
tickets: $100
zach's tux: $120
my dress: $36
my shoes: $10
my sunglasses: $7
cosmic bowling: $30
and i think that's it. all together, the grand total is: $293
and i know girls that spent more than that on their dresses. psh.
alright, well it's late. night.
|
|
| uggggggggh |
[16 May 2004|12:55pm] |
|
i hate it when he lets things just fucking blow over. like when we're out somewhere, if a guy takes a double-look at me, he freaks out but when someone's actually treating me like shit right infront of both of our faces, even other people's faces, he lets it just fly right away. he'll act all cool about it like "yeah, that's fucked up" but then right away, go back over and agree with the other person. and we're supposed to be fixing things?? this is all unneccisary drama, like shit that happens in the 4th and 5th grade. it's all bullshit. i live by the rule "everyone deserves a second chance." i mean EVERYONE because i know i've screwed up a lot in the past and there are times when i wished that people would give me another chance. but i've given his friend more than enough chances to treat me with respect and he still fails to and it's really pissing me off. so yuh know what? i'm not gonna try anymore. yeah, that may be selfish and rude to some people, but let's recap. the first time i met matt, he was very stuck up and arrogant to me, never really getting a chance to know me. the second time, same thing. third time, he acted like i didn't even exist. fourth time, tries competing with me, ignores me, and acts as if i'm some sort of peon to him. i don't think so. it's not flying right. i'm not jsut going to sit there and let someone disrespect me like that. i've been disrespected enough in my lifetime to go around for everyone. no, i'm not asking for people to feel sorry for me, i'm just letting you all know i'm trying to actually stand up for myself now. like it feels like these little fucking tangants that matt throws always get inbetween zach and i...it's like a never-ending, vicious cycle. matt throws a tangant -> makes zach feel guilty -> zach tries his best to make things right -> matt's not satisfied -> matt does nothing about it but bitches -> back at square one. now tell me, am i wrong?? i mean, i really wanna hear what everyone thinks. oh yeah, let me add another point, i never ever ever ever discouraged zach to hang out with matt, as a matter of fact, i was always suggesting that he should. i dunno what the fuck to think. i'm really sorry about all of the cursing, i'm just so upset. sorry.
|
|
| prommy dress |
[02 May 2004|10:55am] |
these are crappy pictures of my prom dress but i'll be sure the day after prom, i'll upload the nice ones!
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
curiousxkaylee's journal